How You Handle Situations That Make You Feel Hopeless in Prison

My wife experienced a life threatening illness and I couldn’t be there to help.

Damian Delune

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Photo by Martha Dominguez de Gouveia on Unsplash

When you’re in prison it’s a given you’re going to miss important things no matter how long you’re down for. Birthdays, anniversaries, these are the things we most often consider. What we don’t think about, because let’s be honest who wants to think about negative things in any context, are the bad things we will likely miss.

Deaths, funerals, health scares.

I’m not the most positive person on the planet, but I try to frame most things in a positive light these days. I have to, considering my circumstances. I’m in prison for a crime I didn’t commit for the next five years, so in order to get through this living hell, I’ve decided the best way to do that is to come out the other side a better person. However, I am also a realist and I went into this knowing there were things I clearly wouldn’t have control over.

My dog is already an old lady. I know she may not be here when I get out. I swear, every time my wife sends me pictures of her, the grey around her mouth gets more pronounced. Maybe I am imagining it, but I don’t think so. If you’ve not had the pleasure of meeting her via Twitter, here you go.

photo by Demeter Delune of Morgan Delune

She’s a brat but she’s my brat.

Clearly, of all the bad things that could happen while I’m tucked away behind bars, losing my dog isn’t the worst of them, but it’s right up there. No, I can’t control it, nor could I even if I were outside. However, if I were on the outside, I could help take care of her, make sure she spent plenty of time outdoors, walked a lot, ate healthy foods, and was generally well taken care of.

No, I’m no longer talking about my damn dog.

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Damian Delune

Incarcerated writer sharing real stories about life on the inside, through my wife, Demeter Delune (editor, publisher, promoter, responder)